Ari Wilde - Malady Lyrics

      

Malady
by Ari Wilde

God can forgive me but I can't forgive myself
For being the same kind of person my mother is
For dreaming of my father with a prosthetic face
Cause he's fake, he's fake, he's fake
I've got all this malady and all this rage
Should I spit this out on stage?
I've been ruined since an early age
Should I spit this out on stage?

 Everybody expects me to cry in silence
So I suffer in violence
When I was a teen my tears dried, I was always silent
I suffеred in violence
Thеre's no sob story, no one told me not to cry
I was the one ashamed of the water wetting my eyes
I wanted to always look defiant
So when you tell somebody to stay hidden in their silence
They suffer in violence

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And I never wanted to change my own fate
Cause it's too late, too late, too late
I've got all this malady and all this rage
Should I scream out loud on stage?
I've been ruined since an early age
Should I scream this out on stage?

 Everybody expects me to cry in silence
So I suffer in violence
When I was a teen my tears dried, I was always silent
I suffered in violence
There's no sob story, no one told me not to cry
I was the one ashamed of the water wetting my eyes
I wanted to always look defiant
So when you tell somebody to stay hidden in their silence
They suffer in violence

 You and your young generation
You say you believe in science
Well, that cigarette's gonna kill ya
You hang around me as an act of defiance
But I don't think I could thrill ya
I should have made sure I didn't put out all my fire
I should have given up on wine
This will be the last song because I am sick and tired
Of listening to myself whine